Hi everyone hope someone can help me, it’s 11 weeks since I lost my beautiful husband and I keep seeing the horrible images in the days before he passed away and the pain is crippling me, has anyone else experienced this?
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Cookie, I honestly believe that we had some shock protection and once the weeks started to pass everything then came in full force to our memory. 8/23 marked my third month and it was a horrible, catastrophic week. I was unable to stop the pain and the ingrained memories.The next day I signed for an online grieving course where I selected the 30 days of grief journaling and it is becoming an unexpected help. At times I have a strong, painful memory come to mind and somehow I have a bit of strength to force myself to push it aside and grab a different thought. This is so hard and crippling indeed… and you are not alone by feeling worst. I was better the first month and then it suddenly overpowered me. A warm hug to you🌹
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Hi Jane, yes absolutely. It’s 8 weeks since my husband died and it’s a rollercoaster of emotions that can change hour by hour. Try not to overthink what’s happening to you as it’s all part of the grieving. Everyone on here have helped me to understand that this is normal. My thoughts are with you and I hope you have a better day tomorrow.X
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@Cookie1973 It has now been 7 months and I still get agitated on the 1st of each month. I replay that day hour by hour and remember the horror and crippling fear that I went through. I think it’s normal. I’m trying hard to train myself to only remember the good times and the great relationship we had, and when the bad memories come back I attempt to bury them in the back of my head; this cannot be his legacy to me.
Take it easy and try to rest. It’s very early for you, try not to expect too much from yourself.