My mum died suddenly in April this yr, she had been living with me, my partner and our 6 and 1 yr old. She move in June of last yr after we got the garage renovated for her, previous to this my dad passed from cancer in June 2023 and mentally she was struggling, I always said neither parent would never go in a home but I must admit it was so hard. Not a huge house either with a family of 4, my mum and the dog it was difficult. But I miss her every single day and feel like I should of seen it coming, I’m a a nurse I work 3 10 hr shifts a week and life was very busy feel like I should of picked up on it, I feel guilty, sad, angry all the time. My 6 yr old was very close to her although my mum was not in great health they talked a lot and did drawing together, I feel like I am making her grief worse and struggling to manage the 2 together. I was always close to my mum and now feel like my best friend, a person I could tell anything to has also gone. Some days it feels as though I can’t breath and I’m totally drowning in all these horrible emotions. My heart is broken and every night when I put my daughter to bed my heart breaks for her too.
Hello @Lou411,
Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about mum. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you will find lots other members sharing their experiences of living with grief after losing a parent.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.
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Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care and keep reaching out 
Alex