I lost my dad 6 weeks tomorrow and i feel so empty inside its such a strange feeling.
At the end of July we found out he had lung cancer and was in out of hospital poorly all the time after that then October 15th we lost him. Im finding it difficult to believe hes gone even though i was sat holding his had and stroking his head as he slipped away. Ive had to be strong for everyone else i feel like i havent been able to start to grieve his loss. Is it normal to feel empty? thats the only way i can describe it.
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Hi @Kellylrs I’m so sorry to hear that. I lost my mum to lung cancer too, 2 and a half months ago. We didn’t find out until it had progressed, and just before she was due to start treatment, she had a stroke. She then fought for weeks in hospital to get better to have treatment, but didn’t make it. I held her in my arms too as she left. My heart is broken. I’ve been through so many emotions since then, one of them is absolutely a feeling of emptiness. I worry I’ll feel that forever, like there’s a giant gaping hole that she left behind. Only her coming back could fill it. I think we might find it difficult to believe their gone because we’re so used to having our parent, so it’s shocking and unfathomable to think they could no longer be there. All we can do is carry on, take things one day at a time. It’s still very new and raw for us. Take care x
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From my experience yes, it’s normal. A horrible normal, but still. There’s a hole in our hearts in the shape of them and that is the emptiness. I’m sorry for your loss. Hugs! 
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I can totally empathise with you, I’m very much feeling the same as you. My lovely Mum passed away 6 weeks ago on Friday on 14th October. I feel empty and still can’t believe I can’t speak to her ever again. If I think too much about it it’s overwhelming - it just all feels very much surreal and I do wonder if you ever come to terms with such a loss.
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So sorry for your loss. My dad was same never got chance to have any treatment as he was poorly with pneumonia. He went into hospice to try sort his meds out and then he was coming to stay with me until he was back on his feet but it never happened. Its just an awfil feeling its like i cant grieve as it still doesnt feel real. Hope you are ok xx
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Aw it’s awful that your dad didn’t get to have treatment either. I keep going through the ‘What If’s’ in my mind, of all the ways things could have gone differently. I just feel so strongly that she should still be here. She wasn’t ready to go. It’s so heartbreaking and shocking. We both wanted our parents to stay with us and have treatment - the fact they didn’t feels so unfair. I hate that my mum never made it out of hospital 
It’ll probably take us a lot time to process what happened, I think that’s maybe normal with grief. Take care x
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I lost my dad in july he had lung cancer 3 times . Im with u it gets harder but to be fair i think we are harder on ourselves for feeling so lost but when youve had someone as a constant we should allow the sadness out so the happiness can out way it. Its the way im getting by one day at a time xxxx
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I too feel empty, and numb. I lost my dad to cancer just over 2 weeks ago. I arrived at my parents minutes after he passed away. I’m going through every possible negative emotion - including feeling empty, unable to believe we will never speak again or fulfill the plans we had. I keep replaying the last few weeks of his life where he lost his dignity and needed to be cared for. It is so painful watching one of the people you love the most going enduring pain and discomfort.
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My loss is as recent and I too replay the last few weeks in my mind and the pain of not having been able to help him (my dad) is immense. Not sure how to move forward right now. I’m sorry you are struggling as well.
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Its so hard seeing someone who was so strong deteriorate so quickly my dad lost so much weight in a few days and looked like a different man when he passed and nobody was expecting it so fast.
I think the hardest part is knowing im never going to speak to him again and hear his voice its hard to believe someone who was always there for me has gone.
This empty feeling is awful. So sorry for your loss xx
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I can relate to you all, it’s so painful watching them suffer and makes it all the more heartbreaking. I can’t imagine how this will get any less upsetting when they have always been there in our lives and we have been so close. It’s the worst heartache I’ve ever experienced.
The time has gone so slowly - I feel like I’ve been living this for months already and it’s only been just over 6 weeks, so how an earth does it feel when it is months / years. Just awful. I’m at work and everything is a struggle, I feel almost robotic and just going through the motions with life.
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I know, the days stretch out forever and don’t seem to end. The nights too, for that matter. One hour at a time, but one hour is so long. The robotic feeling is oh, so familiar as well. The phrase fake it until you make it comes to mind. But it’s tiring and takes a lot of the energy you don’t have anymore.
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