Hi, i just wanted to share this here as i have no one close to me who understands. Im 41, lost my dear mum to motor neurones disease on 23/1/22. ( lost my dad in 2011) I found last christmas absolutely awful. This year , i just keep reliving visiting her in hospital on her last christmas. I will be alone xmas day as no kids/partner and i feel utterly alone 
i light a candle for mum and have her ashes in my home, but i cant stop going through in my head me visiting her on her last xmas. Is anyone in a similar position ? Thoughts to all . X
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So sorry for your loss. I lost my mum suddenly last year 29th December so festive season is a double whammy for us. I am a single parent and my mum was all my son and I had. He has struggled last few weeks and I am trying to hold it together for his sake. I get what you mean about reliving it, I found my mum at home and I still see it and coming up to her anniversary it’s all I can see. I can’t give you any advice but you are not alone feeling the way you do. Festive season to us will never be the same without her. Take care it is not going to be easy but I am sure we will get there 
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Im sorry for your loss too Valda. Its terribly sad isnt it. It takes the joy out of xmas. Im sure at some point i will enjoy this time of year- but just not yet. Thanks for replying, and Take care x
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Yes I think that it’s going to take a while before we can look forward to it again
I’m sorry you’ve lost your mum. 
I don’t have my parents, lost my dad most recently, and don’t have a family of my own, so I can relate. I’m reliving what happened with my dad too and Christmas will never feel like Christmas again.
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