I lost my mum very suddenly 6 weeks ago and it has been honestly the hardest few weeks of my life. I also lost my sibling a few years ago and although my dad and other sibling are still around, we are so very very different and I am struggling to feel supported because I feel like the only person who really truly understood me was my mum. It’s so lonely to feel like even your family are able to just pick themselves up and carry on but I’m struggling so much.
Although I’ve been through this all not so long ago with my sibling, this time feels a thousand times worse. I think knowing what to expect from the funeral is making me feel so anxious. I have also done almost all of the organising for the funeral and it just feels like so much pressure to get it all “right” and make sure it is the best send off for my mum.