Feeling guilty

Losing a partner
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Had a really bad night, I just can’t stop feeling guilty. Asking myself all these different questions, the night before you passed away, you asked me to stay the night which was unusual, you knew the reasons I couldn’t. Then you told me to turn my phone on silent cause I needed a good night sleep. You rung me 10 times the last time being 02.47 am. Why was you ringing me did you know what was happening, was you in pain, I will never know.
Cause that day I came to check in like I was every day and found you lying in bed. The worse day of my life.
Just can’t stop thinking what if I had answered the phone?

I just had to get this thoughts out my head :cry: x

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@Teresa86 I totally understand the feeling of guilt I lost my partner of 25 years in February I tried to resuistate him.
I find myself questioning myself all the time if I had checked earlier did I not do it good enough it’s a horrible feeling.
Sending you strength and hugs :people_hugging:

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Thank you so much, i lost my husband in July this is the first time i have really felt guilty the thought have pipped in my head before but never stayed there like they did last night x

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@Teresa86 nothing prepares you for the rollercoaster of grief I’ve never felt as many emotions in my life

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