Hello everyone, this is my first time writing on here and I only discovered it recently. Firstly, wow there are some amazing people on here with some extremely sad stories but you are so brave sharing them.
I am/was a one to one teaching assistant to an amazing little 8 year old boy who suddenly died on the 6th January 2025 and oh my I can’t express the pain I am in and I am actually shocked how much my whole life has been shattered. Struggling doesn’t even come close to how I am feeling. I have all these feelings of I should be being professional and I should be grateful for what I have personally in my life but I literally feel like there is an invisible force stopping me. I believed I had another 3 and half years with him to give him as many experiences possible and just like that he has gone and I feel lost. I just want to just quit my job and stay at home where I feel safe. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Of course you are grieving the death of this child that you have cared for. You would not be a human being if you didn’t. It is a tragedy when a child dies and part of the world disappears with them.
Cry your eyes out. Scream into the pillow. Seek counseling sessions to help you. Why quit your job when there are other children that need you? You are here and in that position for a reason. Your feathers will dry and you will fly again, you’re an angel after all.
Hello charliej. I can’t offer any advice, but I’d like to offer my sympathy. I know exactly what you mean about the ‘invisible force’. I lost both my husband and my brother in the last 16 months, and I feel completely lost, and wonder how long this will last. I find just posting to this community, knowing it is there is a help. I hope you get messages of support, and find a way through this to ‘life on the other side’. Hugs.
Thank you for your support, I really appreciate your kind words, I hope I have it in me to keep doing what made me and my child happy everyday. It might just take awhile.
Hi Tikky, I’m so sorry for both of your very sad losses and being so close together must be extremely painful. Thank you for understanding the invisible force because I feel like people think I am crazy when I say how it feels. It’s very real and I’m not sure how to get through it yet but all we can do is keep trying I guess. Take care of yourself.