Feeling like I'm wasting time

Losing a parent
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I lost my mum October 2024 and since then I’ve struggled. Now that some time has passed I don’t feel like I’m upset at the slightest thing but I do feel a sense of pointlessness now.
I’ve never lost someone before so I don’t know if this is a common feeling of the grieving process. But I just feel like things such as my hobbies are now meaningless. I usually follow a lot of tv series, like to do colouring books and other crafts. Now if I manage to start something I find my thought pattern turns to how I’m wasting time and is it worth doing this?

It’s something that’s worrying me as although not a suicidal thought it’s very negative and not a good mindset to take on.
I’m 38 this year and keep thinking about how many years I might have and that’s something that scares me as I don’t want to feel this way.

I feel like I have no one to talk this out with. My brother is trying to grieve in his own way and I don’t have a close friendship with anyone to discuss this with.

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:yellow_heart: You’ve come to the right place. It’s bewildering. Dal ati :yellow_heart:.

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I’m sorry for your loss. :heart: I think it’s very common. Our loss is so huge that everything else feels less important in comparison. Sometimes we might have even to find new hobbies that seem more worthwhile than the old ones. So you don’t have to worry that it isn’t normal.

But I understand it’s difficult and perhaps it would be helpful to talk to a counsellor, especially as you say you don’t have anyone else to support you. It’s good that you’ve found your way here too, people are sympathetic and it’s a comfort to know we’re not alone.

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if you are of the mind to meet someone, I suggest it, unless you want to endure life alone. :rose: