I lost my mum October 2024 and since then I’ve struggled. Now that some time has passed I don’t feel like I’m upset at the slightest thing but I do feel a sense of pointlessness now.
I’ve never lost someone before so I don’t know if this is a common feeling of the grieving process. But I just feel like things such as my hobbies are now meaningless. I usually follow a lot of tv series, like to do colouring books and other crafts. Now if I manage to start something I find my thought pattern turns to how I’m wasting time and is it worth doing this?
It’s something that’s worrying me as although not a suicidal thought it’s very negative and not a good mindset to take on.
I’m 38 this year and keep thinking about how many years I might have and that’s something that scares me as I don’t want to feel this way.
I feel like I have no one to talk this out with. My brother is trying to grieve in his own way and I don’t have a close friendship with anyone to discuss this with.