I miss my Mum more than I can even put into words. It’s been 4 weeks and I feel like the more the weeks pass by, the less chance there is that she’s coming back (I know this makes no logical sense).
I just don’t see how I can carry on without her in my life, she was the centre of it and now it feels cold and empty.
I’m not sure whether I’m going to survive this loss 
I’m so sorry about your recent loss, it will be still raw for you!
I felt like you last year in March because I lost my Mum to, but somehow I am still here. I am not going to lie and say time is a healer because I have learnt that isn’t the case unfortunately!
What helps me a little is coming on here and speaking to people that understand what we are going through.
Please feel free to inbox me if you need anyone to talk to x
Im sorry for your loss too.
I dont know what id have done without this community over the past 4 weeks, it has been a lifeline for definite.
I never realised so many people were affected, which seems like such a silly thing to say but you dont know until you know do you.
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Don’t worry, it makes perfect sense. I know the feeling and I have that feeling now, mourning for my dad. You - can - survive, but it’s hard to find the will to do so when the pain is so immense and the only thing we can do is take it one minute at a time. I read and post here when the darkness strikes and it helps a bit as people on the forum are kind and compassionate. But in the end nothing can take the hurt away and I only wish none of us had to bear it. It’s the very worst. Sending hugs. 
Thank you for your reply
Immediately after my Mum passed, I did find taking it one hour at a time allowed me to get by, I need to keep reminding myself to do that instead of thinking too far ahead because it’s too much.
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The brain cannot compute it. I had a lapse the other day and couldn’t stop thinking about the years ahead and that had me spiralling into despair again. We have to stay on the path and not venture out into the wilds, the forest is dark and wide and there are monsters there.
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Hi Stardust,
My heart goes out to you. Grief is so raw,cruel and never ending in some form or another.
I am just over a year on from when my mum passed and she also was my life. You just have to take baby steps .Just try to get through each hour Forget about getting through each day because that’s too long to even think about. Gradually try to get through a morning then afternoon
Rest as much as you can and try to look after yourself until you feel a little stronger.
It’s the toughest thing I have ever had to go through and I still cry daily and sometimes many times each day.
I couldn’t relate in the beginning to any advice or anything anyone said to me to make me feel better. I just wanted my mum back and nothing helped me. But then I found this site and it was my lifeline. I found in the middle of the night when my family were sleeping I had no one who understood and would cry and cry for hours. It was at those moments that I started using this site and realised there were people who really understood. Please keep posting because there are amazing people on here who will show you nothing but love and support and whatever you write you will not be judged. Everyone understands what you are going through and it one way of helping you whilst you go through this awful journey.
Sending love to you
Deborah x
So sorry for your loss, I agree this site is a life line, the fact that so many people feel the same way. I’ve read about the bad days and the reality bad days, I’m having the worst. No energy to do a thing 
Hi Deborah I’ve just read your post and as im struggling today i just thought I’d say hello 
Hi Cheryl1962,
Lovely to hear from you.
Struggling is the new norm isnt it? The pain never goes away. Nor the tears in fact.
I am the same as you. No energy at all and have been like this for over a year since my mum passed. Everything is an effort most days.
I am so glad you have posted on here This site is a godsend in so many ways. No one judges you at all and comments and replies are always so kind and supportive even when you have a good old rant.
Keep going and keep posting. It will ease slightly but after a good while
Big hugs
Deborah x
Thanks Deborah I’ve had the worst morning of my life this morning, it was torture but after getting up off the sofa late afternoon I took my dog out and now I can actually say I have probably just about enough energy to dust and hoover, mainly because my mum’s house was her palace and she wouldn’t want me to live in a tip. Thanks so much for posting, it does help, take care xx
Hiya,
Aww it’s so o awful when you hit rock bottom. Just take each day hour by hour. When did your mum pass? Did she and you live together.
I set up a small area in my lounge with a photo of mum done flowers a candle ,cross and some Welsh items of hers as we are Welsh. Where do you live?
The rawness of grief in the beginning was absolutely terrible. I couldn’t function at all. Couldn’t even get out of bed for weeks. Totally neglected myself and I honestly didn’t care Thank god I didn’t have to go to work.
Do you work ?
Sorry for all the questions.
Message me anytime. You are doing so so well and I am proud of you. This is a total nightmare we are going through.
Keep going lovely. Your mum is helping you .
Deborah x
Hi Deborah hope you are well, I’ve picked up a little this afternoon and took my dog out, which helped a bit.
I live in Lancashire and I didn’t live with my mum but she only lived a 20 minute walk away. She passed away on Blue Monday this year 15th January, you can imagine how I’ll feel next year. I can’t bare to think about it. It was her funeral last Friday. The thing about my mum was she was so young at heart, she’d just turned 85 last October.
I’m not at the stage you are yet with having a photo etc as I can’t bare to even look at photos of my mum at the moment, its too painful. I just can’t imagine her not being here for birthdays, Christmas etc, maybe that’s why I’ve shut down, I don’t want to know what day or time it is. I do work though and I’m off sick but I can’t be off forever, although I wish I could retire early, I’m 62 this year. I’m so glad I found this site, it’s a godsend
Take care xx
Hi @stardust2023 , im so so sorry for the loss of your lovely mum . 4 weeks after losing my Dad (November 2023), I felt like you do now. I was so traumatised by the events leading up to his death, then losing him, i never thought I’d laugh again, live again, or survive this scarey world without him…but I am, and my mum is too, against all odds. Never stop reminding yourself what your parent would want you to be thinking and feeling right now, and try to hear her voice comforting you in the way she would if she could right now. This helped me.
It’s such a difficult task to do when all you want to think about is past memories and worrying about a bleak, lonely future, but living in the now every single minute of every day has literally saved my life. As soon as i started actively practising living in the moment and brushing every other thought away, I started suddenly healing, very slowly, but healing none the less. I can talk about Dad now 12 weeks on without my insides riding up into my throat. I can smile at memories as equally as I cry at them, i can laugh at silly jokes at work, and I’ve even landed an amazing career move. We as humans are built to be resilient in grief, we just have to push so hard to find our own individual coping mechanisms. Forcing myself to be present in the moment has been a game changer for me. I hope it’ll help you too, and others reading this. I’m still utterly devastated, lost, and miss my dad with every millimetre of my broken heart, but I can manage those emotions now so as to give me the head space I need to live a decent life. Happiness is ahead of you, i absolutely promise you that.
Just a message away if you need an ear xxxx
I feel exactly the same, it’s been 3 weeks. No words. Emptiness. I’m 37 with two boys but just want my mum. 
I’m the same I’m 62 and really just need my mam