I was really looking forward to today. A friend was supposed to come over, and I think I needed that more than I realised. I’ve been missing having a real, heartfelt conversation with someone something deeper than just work talk or small talk. She couldn’t make it in the end, and I do understand she has a small child and things don’t always go to plan. But tonight I just feel… really alone. Like there’s this heavy weight sitting on my chest and no one to share it with. Grief can be so isolating sometimes. You go through your days, you talk to people, but it’s not the same as being able to open your heart and just be understood.
I just needed to say this somewhere where maybe someone gets it
Hi Justyna, I am so sorry for you, I know what you mean it’s so difficult not being able to talk about how you feel to anyone. So to be looking forward to having that chat and it being cancelled is so difficult. I hope you’ll be able to see your friend soon and get a little comfort from it. Fortunately here it’s possible to express what you’re feeling because if it wasn’t for this site I would be totally isolated.
I hope you have a peaceful evening and a good night’s sleep.
Wishing you all the best
Tom
Thinking of you, when you’re looking forward to meeting up with someone it does upset you when it has to be cancelled. Grief is so lonely. That’s why on here people know how you feel and it just gives comfort to be able to reach out and talk to others in our position. I do hope you manage to get some rest this evening. Take care LJ
I know exactly how you feel. I feel very similarly at the moment. Things will change and this feeling of isolation will hopefully soften. Hopefully, you will see this friend or another very soon. But until then, those of us in the same boat understand and empathize. Wishing you well.
I am sorry for your loss , it always disappointing when are friends cancel on us . Hope you can rearrange and meet up another time . Hope you get some rest tonight.
HI Justyna I often get that feeling, of needing to talk to someone. Yesterday I finally got to see a friend after we had been moving the date for weeks and was able to talk for about an hour and a half with her about losing my husband, about what a wonderful man he was, about how much I miss him. Afterwards I felt calmer. I hope you can see your friend soon and be able to feel listened and cared for. Sending you a big hug
I went to a monthly community lunch after having to miss it because I was ill and my car wouldn’t start before. However the person I used to sit with for over a year wasn’t there. I felt such mixed feelings. Like loss. Wondered what happened. Unfortunately never had Tel contact. But a new person had arrived who was in similar position as me so wasn’t so bad. I can’t get over this feeling though of loss of the friendship although for all I know could be same reason I could not go before.
Hi Enorac, as you say it doesn’t mean the friend you had made won’t be going back to the meeting at a later date. Maybe you could ask other people who were there what has happened to your friend. It’s possible they were away with family etc.
I hope you find your friend at the next meeting
Wishing you all the best
Tom
Hi Justyna, I hope you are feeling a little better this evening. The weekends always seem to be the hardest. I hope you have a peaceful evening and good night’s sleep
All the best
Tom
Yes of course it is true thinking of the worst outcome when disappointed instead of the opposite.
What a rollercoaster life is when the rug feels slippery.
However on Sunday I ended up the only choice to sit with when half didnt show up to reschuled monthly shared breakfast.
After singing in the choir only one other person stayed on otherwise I would have been left high dry so to speak. There was a beetle drive on in the afternoon and I only managed two out of three activities in one day. I needed to chill out so gave that a miss.
Today another day. Woke up late so already missed a head start. I can only face one activity so trying to check if the onlne group is starting today or next week.
