I lost my mum on August 6th, after a short illness.
I’d been her carer for 14 years after my dad died.
I feel so alone, even though I have a loving husband and supportive friends.
I know she is with my dad now and in the last year her quality of life had deteriorated, but selfishly I miss her support and love.
Will i ever feel better?
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@Rach68
Hi, sorry to hear about your Mum. I wish I could answer the question but Istill wonder the same. I lost my Mum a few months ago and I am still crying every day, heartbroken and devastated as we were very close. People keep saying to me it will become less raw but who knows when that will be. I completely get you, and I don’t think it’s selfish missing your Mum’s support and love I feel just the same it was always unconditional. Keep posting there are lots of people on here and we seem to be in similar boats. I didn’t realise there were so many people grieving like this. Sending a hug 
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Thanks for you reply, it’s still very early days and i know I need to try and take each day as it comes.
I just think my hubby and friends will get sick of me and my current scatterbrained ways, I can’t seem to make any decisions or think about the future.
Every day there’s a reminder, a letter from energy companies, email from the bank, her flat to clear, funeral next week, it’s never ending.
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@Rach68
Taking each day as it comes is somewhat all you can do with the feelings and emotions that come with your loss.
I too, although having strong support from my hubby/kids/friends feel that at some point everyone get fed up of me despite what they say.
I can’t tell you, I can’t even remember how I did all the phone calls that needed to be made so close to Mum’s death. It was complete auto pilot. For the funeral I was again on autopilot and didn’t want the day to be about my intense loss, I don’t know how I did it but I stayed strong on that day. You can do it if you plant it in your mind. It is never ending Rach68 but there’ll be some hidden strength within you that will help you through it. I wish I could say to you it gets easier after the funeral but to be honest I feel it’s got harder as I feel people’s expectations change yet I’m still stuck in what feels like the same place. You will come through it, take all the help from people offering to you that you can, you need it. x
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p.s. everyone says they are not fed up of you but there for you, it’s just how you feel. x
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what I’m trying to say is they are not fed up of you, it’s all how we feel. x
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Hi @Rach68,
So sorry for your loss 
Of course you feel lost and that’s totally natural. I only cared for my Dad for 7 months before he passed and I was the same, as his routine had become my routine and you have been doing it for 14 years!
Take things one day at a time, try to look after yourself - self care, sleep, eating properly and fresh air & exercise.
I not sure we ever feel better after losing our parents but you learn to live with the grief, develop techniques to get through the bad days and new branches do grow from the tree but the big hole in the trunk is always there!
Take care
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