It’s nearly six months since my wife died and the last few days I have been very low. My son and his wife came to see me with the grandchildren yesterday, we went out for a walk in the gale force winds. After about half an hour I was struggling and started to think why am I doing this and broke down in tears.
It dawned on me that although Sue had become very weak and I loved and cared for her that she also loved me very much. She would have persuaded me not to go out in such bad weather. I now miss that loving caring love of my life so very much and I am finding it difficult to find any happiness in life.
Sorry to be so downbeat but I find it helps to write on here as I know people understand.
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It’s easy to say 6 months isn’t long but it’s really understandable that you’re feeling this way.
Who knows what each of us will feel and how long it takes before the hurt starts to get less. All I can say is that it’s been 2 years since my wife died and it remains hurtful at times but more manageable. Just one day at a time
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I understand what you are saying. It’s 36 weeks for me, over 8 months.
I don’t know if it’s autumn ( my Sue loved autumn and the changing of colours) or just feeling more alone. I have felt more lost. I know its about finding the new you,but i don’t think I’m ready for that yet.
I know she loved me as much as i love her. It’s just so hard when you don’t have that in your life anymore.
It really is still one day at a time.
Take care.