Feeling lost

It’s been nearly 2 months now since my dad passed away. I have family and friends telling me to pick myself up and get back to work and into a routine but I just can’t. I feel so tired for not sleeping. My mind goes into overdrive thinking of my dad and how he suffered til his death. I was his carer for 18 months. I just feel so lost and angry.

Thank you Tillwemeetagain.
I must of done something really bad in my past life for had a phone call from my sister 1/2 hour ago that my aunt has passed away. She was like a second mum. Always looking out for us. When will this heartache end.