Feeling lost

I lost my husband of 44 years on 4 January to pancreatic cancer. Today will be 38 days since he died. I thought i was doing OK, but today i feel totally lost and alone.

His funeral was yesterday. I spent a month planning the service, chosing the music he would love, the flowers, the get together after etc. It all went like a dream. It was not a funeral, but the celebration of the life of an exceptional man who i am proud to have had as a life partner.

Today i feel the worst I have felt. I cant stop crying. Its like ive given him a send off, and now there is nothing. I dont know how im going to cope without him but cope i must because before he left me he made me promise that i would be OK. I dont know how I’m going to honour that promise. Please someone tell me it gets a little more bearable.

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Big hugs. Its a very hard journey, I’ve found everyone’s different some people cope better quicker some it takes longer :heart:

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I’m sorry for your loss. Please accept my condolences.
I lost my husband to cancer last November.
I promised him I would look after myself.
Keep your promise. One day at a time.
Baby steps.
Just be the best version of you that you can be and do it in his honour but also do it for you. You will be ok. He we will be with you, and he has faith in you. Don’t be hard on yourself.
Sending hugs :people_hugging:

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@paeony I’m so sorry for your loss. My husband was 63 when died from pancreatic cancer in September and we had a celebration for his life a month later. I can’t tell you it gets easier, because it hasn’t for me - I’m crying again this morning, but I try to keep busy. I accept most invitations and offers of help.

And I’m paying for some counselling which is helping.

Sending you a hug.

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So sorry for your loss.
Sending love & big hugs X