Hi Tray
I hope you are feeling a bit better today. I was so sad to read how you have been feeling as have been feeling very low myself this week too.
My next door neighbour asked me in for a drink last night unexpectedly which was lovely and turned into dinner with her and her family. I left fairly early as it was a family celebration of the daughter’s birthday who I have known since she was a child. Her Mum had made her a cake and I came home and felt so sad I would never have that again myself.
I am feeling so sad today, I don’t think I ever knew what it was like to be so unhappy as I have since my Mum died.
Anyway what I want to say is however you may be feeling, you still have your lovely memories of your Mum so you can be together with those. Others have suggested ringing Samaritans so I hope you did or found some way to get through the night. If you still are feeling bad tomorrow would your Doctor be able to see you, ask for an emergency appointment and don’t take no for an answer!
I think you have mentioned in previous posts having a dog. Would a cuddle with him or her help? I am going for a walk in a minute in the sun. No dog for me but can enjoy other peoples.
Mel