Lost my mum just before Christmas and had a long wait till her funeral and then just last week her birthday. I feel numb, like watching life from behind glass and not fully participating at all. I’ve hardly cried and although Alzheimer’s only has one outcome I can’t remember my mums voice or anything about her before the diagnosis in 2021. I feel so lost and returned to the office today and couldn’t wait to get home again. Hope this gets easier. I feel as tho I’m on auto pilot
Hello @Kaz222 ,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling numb and lost. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.
- Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
- Our Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS
- Our free Online Bereavement Counselling which is held via video chat
- Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Alex
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It only has one outcome but it no less of a shock when it comes, it took mum April last year horrific and brutal, I feel your pain I to can only see mum in the grip of the disease but even then there were good moments.
The pain will lessen our lives are changed forever and they helped make us who we are so we will carry them always.
You have done so well to go back to work, auto pilot will do for now but the spring will come, take care.
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Completely agree with Olive, I lost my mum nearly 3 months ago, Alzheimer’s for around 9 years, I always looked for the little, happy things when she was here and always knew the day would come where she wasn’t. Thought I was prepared, quickly realised that nothing could’ve prepared me for how I feel now.
Take care of yourself x