Hi everyone. This is my first post on here so please bear with me. I’m struggling really badly at the moment with an intense loneliness. My mum passed away over 2 years ago (March 2024) but honestly it feels like it has only been getting harder recently. I’ve had a lot of change in my life over the last year or so and I think although it’s been mostly positive it’s actually made things so much harder because with every change I feel like I’m getting further and further away from my Mum. I’m living on my own for the first time and whilst I initially loved it and still do subjectively, I find myself crying almost every day when I’m at home on my own now as I feel I have no one. I live around 100 miles away from the rest of my family and I used to phone my mum every couple of days to catch up and it breaks my heart I can’t do that anymore. The fact everything seems to have got harder recently really makes me fear for the future as I don’t know how I’m supposed to get through the rest of my life like this. I’m only 26 and I’m single so I’ve got so many big life moments ahead of me and I hate that they will all be without my Mum to witness/talk to about.
I’m not sure why I’m writing on here - I think I find it really difficult talking to friends etc about as I don’t want them to feel bad like they aren’t doing enough for me or something and I feel stupid struggling with this over 2 years on.
I guess I’m hoping I can find someone who can relate to how I feel and share their experiences and maybe how they cope with an intense feeling of loneliness.
