You know when you think you are doing do well and then it hits you how lonely it feels if you havent spoken to someone today.
I feel like i was doing good this week i joined a choir when to shops and even managed to look to book an event in Nov at the theatre. But now suddenly it hits me that doing things on my own is frightening and feels like i am lost without my husband to guide and support me. I know i need to be strong but by god today it is very hard.
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Weekends are the worse, not looking forward to the long dark nights and Christmas to come, it’s all just too much. I woke up this morning with a feeling of dread and loneliness and just pulled the covers over my head and stayed in bed for another 2 hours, all that was going through my mind was my Julie’s not here with me so what’s the point, I’ve had a really tearful miserable day, what life I have now it really shit and pointless, how much longer do I have to endure this pain, I want my Julie to come for me so I can be with her again.
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@Galaxy75
I know how you feel. I thought I was doing well this week, even joined U3A, but today has been awful. I am completely lost without my husband and as you say, to guide and support me.
I have unhappy memories of this time last year which isn’t helping but, even so, life without my wonderful man is hardly worth very much,
Take care as we battle on xx
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Thanks.
Looks like the journey we are all on is painful and it will be lots of ups and downs.
Taking a step at a time but still font have the support that he provided for me and i still have my 3 monthly appointment with my consultant as i am 2 years into the 10 year journey. Doing this on my own is hard but no one else to get me through.
I fo gave macmillan or ovacome who are great to talk to.
Take care everyone.
Hope weekend passes quickly
I am planning early night hooefully can sleep better than yesterday.
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Hello, I know what you mean, I’ve been on holiday & was proud of myself that I’d gone & for a few days I enjoyed it but then I noticed all the couples helping each other, chatting together, I thought I don’t have that now, if I fell physically or emotionally there’s no one to pick me up, boy did I feel angry and bitter!
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I find that’s the difficult thing when you go out and look around and there are couples everywhere walking hand in hand and talking, we have all lost that closeness to our loved ones and that’s almost impossible to come to terms with, life is so cruel and unfair
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