Not sure where to start. But last night i found out my mum had taken her own life. She cut contact with me in september so i wasnt in contact and checking in on her everyday like i would have been. She suffered for years with her mental health and could never except the love that myself and her grandchildren had for her! I wish i could tell her how much we loved her and that she didn’t need to be alone. The guilt is eating away at me, i should of been stronger and not excepted her rejection. I should of made her want to be apart of my life. I just want her back
First of all so sorry for your loss. The guilt is apparently normal so I have been told but that does not make it any easier. I was at my parents every weekend but that did not stop what happened. I feel like I let them down. I do feel your pain.