I know the feeling but it does get easier with practice. I’ve done a night away and being asked about a weeks holiday this year. But I feel vulnerable to leave my safe place for a week. So I’ll build up to it. Step at a time.
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My mistake poem by Henry Scott Holland
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Thank you for your kind words.
It’s lovely to hear from someone that really gets it .
Happy to listen anytime. X
Yes, the empty house, the coming home and weekends which no longer feel comfortable and relaxed when you’re trying to process what’s happened and the crushing weight on your heart. Sending love and understanding. Xx
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Did you make it to the theatre? I hope you enjoyed it. X
Hi Debbie I am so sorry for your loss I lost my husband in Oct after short illness and the pain was unbearable my world fell apart it is a struggle to find the new normal when all you want is your old normal back but I take it day by day some days are ok others I just cry. Grief has no time limit. I’m back at work 3days a week which I find enough for now as I feel safer at home. Take care 
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I did thank you Cooki and although inevitably, my mind wondered at times, there were other small moments watching the dance that absorbed me. I observe myself trying to do “normal things” and feeling so abnormal and it’s heartening to discover through this online community, that there are so many of us facing this agonising struggle. It was probably the longest time spell that I’ve been out of the house since my husband died 5 weeks ago. Thank you for encouraging me to be brave enough to go. X
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Time is passing but not much relief! In some ways it getting worse! I have big decisions to make like downsizing but unable to discuss them! Tony and I were both only children and although our three children are wonderful and supportive it still down to me at the end of the day!! They have their lives to live and are a different generation! This morning it suddenly struck me as to who was now my next of kin?!! oldest son I suppose!! What an awful journey we all on - nothing but nothing prepares you for it! xx
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Well done x
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Hi Julie, lovely of you to reply. I know exactly how you feel, it is unbearable isn’t it.
I can’t feel motivated about anything . I have lovely support from family and friends but no one can give me what I really want and that is Brian back with me.
Although he has had serious health issues at times he always bounced back. He wasn’t really ill just under the weather and a bit breathless. He went into hospital
on New Years Day with mild pneumonia, they said he would be in for couple of days however he rapidly deteriorated and died in 5th January. It is so hard to accept.
One day at a time xx
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It is very hard my husband never really got ill or went to doctors until this and sadly it was to late and within 3 months my world was turned upside down. I know one day my new normal will find me but until then I take each day as it comes. 
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