I’ve written on here a lot about the loss of my husband just before Christmas & navigating that grief is hard & still hard 5 years later. I’ve just lost my Mum & it’s suddenly hit me that this will be the first Christmas without Mum. I’m 60 that’s 60 Christmases, apart from a few years when we lived away from each other we spent them together. Even when away, My Mum was my first call, it’s hit me like a hammer tonight, & without my husband to share it with it’s tough.
Hi Jodel,
You are not alone in this. I also lost my parents and husband at age 45. This is my first Christmas without them. I’m back in my parents house trying to honour them before selling it in the spring. It’s very odd. Christmas doesn’t feel like Christmas. But we are strong women. I keep telling myself my mum knew how to raise me well and I will honour her by using this holiday to make plans for the year ahead. But it is hard. I’m wishing you peace tonight.
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Sending love & strength to you 
xx