My first holiday without you darling man and being away with family is fantastic and to be honest i don’t want to go home. Because it will be quite and only me and my son at home and i love being with my son but he stays upstairs alot and I sit on my own and i hate it. Being away with my daughter and grandsons and my son is amazing and already sad thinking i will be back home Sunday. Missing my husband so much and thinking of you all and sending huge
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Enjoy the last few days @Judy10 - perhaps you could plan another one so you have that to look forward to ?
Maybe when you go home you could see if you and your son could spend more time together ?
It’s so hard when we don’t have them just to sit and do nothing with.
Sending a big hug xx
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Hey roni52 and it’s hard my son likes being on his own and struggles because of his autism and anxiety. But he’s really done great on this holiday and I just need something to look forward to and i guess we are all the same. It’s strange being on holiday without my husband. But I’m trying to do my best for our son. Going home tomorrow and not looking forward to not being with my daughter and grandsons. Hope you are doing ok and thanks 
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Hi @Judy10
I’m going on my first holiday without Roger tomorrow.
I just keep wishing it was with him.
But you have given me hope, that although I will be wishing Roger was there, maybe I will enjoy it anyway.
Like you did
Thankyou
X x
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Liro aww bless you and i wasn’t looking forward to my first holiday without my husband and I didn’t want to come back to reality and being with my daughter and grandsons was really lovely and I really hope you have a good time. I did get upset and cried 
but overall it was really good. My husband would want me and our son happy and all we can do is try. Xx
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Thankyou.
I did have a few tears this morning.
But I have enjoyed today and I will yry to carry on enjoying it
Love and hugs
Liz x x
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Liro hope your holiday is going well and it’s going to be sad and tears and i hated coming back to reality. X
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Thankyou @Judy10
The holiday has been nice.
I’m a bit fretful today because it is the day I would have have been going away with Roger.
But we’re off to Edinburgh today so I will be well distracted.
No I’m not looking forward to coming back to reality 
I’ll face that Saturday
Love and hugs x x
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Liro how was your holiday and hope you had a good time. Xx
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Hi @Judy10
Thank you so much for thinking of me.
My holiday was really nice, a bit busy and tiring but good.
I almost felt normal for the first time this year. We met some lovely people and we laughed a lot. It was as if it wasn’t really me
But then I had to come back to reality and boy was that hard.
I cried most of yesterday evening.
Then in the early hours of this morning, a thunderbolt tore through the roof 2 doors away. I’ve never heard an explosion like it, it blew my tv and my boiler. I was scared witless .
There I was in the middle of the night afraid,crying, alone and feeling useless
My tv can’t be saved but a neighbour fixed the boiler.
So it was a really good home coming. 
I think I’ll go back to Scotland 
Sorry to ramble on. You only asked about my holiday 
Love and hugs x x
Morning Liro I’m really happy you had a good holiday and I felt like you almost normal and then reality hits hard. Omg 
that must of been so scary 
and my heart goes out to you because i hate thunder storms and lucky we don’t get them to badly. My husband would watch them and tell me i will be ok and i hope your ok as can be. Thinking about you and sending hugs 
to you
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Morning @Judy10
Thankyou
Yes I hate thunderstorms but I tried to put my big girl knickers on.
So I decided to turn the tv on.
As I did the thunderbolt hit and my tv exploded.
I was terrified. Like you my husband loved a storm, but I think that would have shaken him too.
A lot of people in the area thought a bomb had gone off.
I’m ok now
Just got to get new tv 
Love and hugs 
Liz x x
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Liro at least no one was hurt and hopefully it don’t happen again and glad your ok. Wasn’t your tv covered and i really don’t like them and have to be calm for my son. Big hugs
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@Liro Getting a new tv just made me think of my husband - not that he’s ever far from my thoughts.
He loved to get tech - tvs, consoles, laptops, gadgets for all occasions.
I can just picture him in heaven just now scrolling through Curry’s website looking for a new tv for you.
It would have to be the biggest screen, highest pixels or whatever they are and be the best bargain !!
I feel a bit bad now as I was always the voice of reason and wouldn’t let him get what he really wanted to buy. But we would have been bankrupt and have had 4 tvs in every room. Brings a smile to my heart 
Xx
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Bless you both.
No unfortunately I’m not insured for that but it was quite old, we were given it some years ago by friends.
My firestick however was only a few weeks old.
But apparently I won’t need a firestick in a new tv
My son-in-law is the tech expert. I just tell him what want and he sorts it out and sets it up
I wouldn’t have a clue.
Thankyou both for caring
Liz x x
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Liro My husband use to deal with all that to and not long after he died my tv packed up and my son in law helped me and like you i have no clue and it’s hard having to get family to help all the time. Anything that broke my husband would fix it 
now i have to wait and so much has changed for us all. Xx
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Its certainly a learning curve.
Roger thought I was made of glass
Well I’m not, I’ve found out.
I’m stronger than he/I thought and I can do things. 
There’s still a lot I can’t do so I’m learning to ask for help. Although I hate having to.
It’s the missing him that breaks me every time 
X x
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I hate having to ask for help too so will try my upmost to do most things.
Today I filled the car with stuff for the skip, and the trailer, so I had to learn how to put the towbar on the car, fix up the trailer and electrics and then drive it there myself.
I did help my husband when he did it in the past but he usually did the mechanical things.
I managed it all eventually but there are a few things you just need a bit of brute strength for ! Will need to get pumping iron next to build those muscles …
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Liro it’s hard because my husband did everything for me and he was my carer and now I’m stuck trying to get help and I’m lucky enough to have amazing daughters and i know I’m lucky then some people. But I’m making phone calls 
which I never did and it’s the missing them like you say. That feels like it will hurt forever xx
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