Hello everyone, Thinking of you all tonight. My world fell apart in October. I feel all your pain, been struggling. Was in a dark place on Friday & Saturday couldn’t get of the bedroom floor, don’t remember much about it.
My sister who lives miles away suggested I should sign up. She & her husband were coming down for New Year but developed chest infections. That was Saturday.
Tonight- My daughter 28yrs & I were FaceTiming from midnight. We were crying, it shouldn’t be like this., he should be here, it’s not fair , it’s not real. She’s just fallen asleep, I wanted to wait until she dropped off & kept myself awake. Now Im so tired but as usual I’m awake. It’s the usual, fall asleep for minutes then wake up going over & over what ifs. I’m going to try to drop off again. It’s the 3oclock club so I doubt it. Looks like it will be be BBC sounds to help me. Doesn’t work for long but it helps with the panic attacks & breathing. Try it! Does anyone have any other suggestions as it’s draining. .Hope no ones awake but if you are I’m sending big hugs x
Hiya, I feel like I’m always awake. I try to keep the light off for as long as I can hoping to drop off but usually I don’t. I’ve given up for tonight now. Before I lost Alan ( which was only 2 weeks ago except its now ‘last year’) we used to run through alphabets of things like countries or dog breeds to bore ourselves to sleep so maybe try that? It would be good if there was a thread on here that all the people who are awake at 3am could join because I suspect there’s loads of us. Anyway, today is another hurdle to get through and then the‘festivities’ are over and that will be a huge relief. I hope you can have a peaceful day. Take care x
Well just realised because it is a public holiday can’t Tel go surgery and junior doctors on strike.
Alone feeling unwell not to mention miserable start second new year a widow since Nov 2022.
It feels more miserable than last year. I looked in my diary this time last year and was busy even though didn’t feel well. Another birthday on boxing day I struggled with and new year in my own. And all these happy new year when I do not feel happy at all. Lots people are ill and how to cheer myself up. Have a bath I guess. All these statements if life goes in when you feel poorly.
So I look back over the year. I am still here.
But almost feel less motivated than last year. I overdid things. It was too much to cope with
Enormous stress. Lots from other people who tried to force me to do things I wasn’t ready for. From people who had no idea. I felt stop this pressure. No one believed me that I wasn’t up to it.
So I ended up doing almost nothing because burn out.
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Thank you, that’s helpful. I think sometimes the longer you leave lights/tele on it’s harder to get off isn’t it. Then your awake every hour. Sending lots of hugs & hope you have a good New Year’s Day. So Sorry about your Alan. I put out a glass for my husband last night next to his photo. X
Just go at your own pace, hope you’re feeling better.
I dont have a suggestion but do share if anyone has one as im in the same boat. Absolutely exhausted. Not slept in our bed (or in a bed) since March, im soo tired
I know the exhaustion. I don’t sleep until my body says you have to. Actually feel as though I did sleep last night. It just makes the emotional strain harder to bear. Been like this since June.
Have you spoken to your doctor? I can’t have sleeping pills but they may bring some respite.i feel for you and know what you are going through.
Xx
Sandra
I take melatonin.
A friend recommended it, and I started it before Roger died as he wasn’t sleeping well, but wanted me to rest.
It doesn’t necessarily help me to drop off but I feel that I can go back to sleep more easily. I order the tablets on line.
Well I slept a lot with exhaustion the other night. I am obviously not only one. Watched Mr Bates and the Post Office again tonight. All injustices and consequences reminded me of our life story again but not because worked there but banging your head against a brick wall in every area of life makes grief worse when you think of all the injustices you have been through. That your loved ones all suffered things like this even at the end.
Very depressing really but brings to mind life and work and living stresses.
I had a counselling appointment yesterday to see if it was for me. I got through it by perseverance. Now wait another six weeks for six sessions. I was told need to because anxiety is high and no respite from it other than mention it. It helps on here.
Today I did rake a bit of the garden when rain stopped and filled a bag of dead plants ready to hoe when I get next few minutes. Otherwise didn’t achieve anything else.