Would you consider your own death as a curse or a blessing ? I been diagnosed with Myeloma Cancer recently. I’m 6 weeks into my Chemo treatment. Obviously I don’t know what’s going happen or still how I feel about being diagnosed. I lost mum 21st August 23, I don’t know what to make of life these days. I miss her, obviously if I could I would choose to be with her. What you want and what you get are two different things.
I’m so sorry about your recent news. That must be very frightening. You pose an interesting question and a very complicated one. I think for me of course I want to be reunited with my Dad (he passed away about 9 months ago) but I know he would want me to have a full happy life as much as possible before that happens.
I’ve been thinking about this too. Im sorry to hear about your illness and the treatment you have to go through. What do you think your mum would want for you? On the one hand you’ll not be suffering the grief and illness. I hope you regain your health and have loved ones and meaning in your life, so you can focus on that and if you don’t, I hope that you may find it. You’re still grieving and so maybe your thinking will change around this in time. Do you have emotional support? Take care x
I think mum would want to be there for me if she could. She probably would be upset and worried too. She would help me if she could. I think you have to just go with the flow, what will be will be.
That’s lovely you know your mum loved you. If she’s looking over you, she’ll be wishing you well and sending her love.
You have support here. You can also call the Samaritans if you want to talk. I found them helpful.
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Don’t think I have the guts to take my life. But it’s coping on my own and being in the flat I shared with mum.
Hi @Keith68 I am so sorry to hear of your news and I do hope treatment is effective. Loss of our mums is devastating, especially when we are sad due to news of this nature or we are ill and want them there . I can understand this is alot on top of what you already fetlt in grief.
Are you able to live elsewhere, or are you perhaps able to think of the positive times in that flat, like a presence she still has with you for comfort. Mum lived with us 3 years in our spare room, she loved it here but eventually had to move to a home for more company of her own age, activities etc. I find comfort that my office is where she had joyful times, feel her a bit here, it’s only been 4 months but it helps a little.
Please post as and when you can, I am on the Losing A Parent area more so had not seen your post
It’s tough being in the flat alone after 50 odd years together with mum and yes you are right. Coping with Myeloma on top and wanting your mum there for you too has an effect on you. Even though mum wouldn’t been able to help me, too old.