Hello Alligin, I’m so sorry for your loss. Forty-four years is a long time of togetherness and I understand how devastated you will be feeling right now. You will find friends here. I’ve only been posting for a short time but the advice and kindness received has been beneficial. I was with my husband for 42 years and married for 38. Like others, I hope you get some comfort from joining. Take care, kind regards x