I lost my mum on 6th Jan and it’s just been weird since. The last few weeks have mostly been spent dealing with all the practical stuff. I dont know how i managed that as everything has been a bit hazy and foggy.
At the moment, im very up and down.
The absolute rawness of the grief is subsiding but it comes in waves that suddenly hit me. I wasn’t too bad yesterday, i did a bit of shopping and visited friends for a couple of hours. Today though, I’m very low and the grief is hitting me again
This is partly because of letters received today some of which were to do with mums affairs that needed dealing with. The main problem was a phone call i received late morning from the undertaker saying they had mum’s ashes and are delivering them this evening. Everything still seems surreal at the moment and this is just a horrible wake up call and i really don’t know whether to be sad or happy that she’s now home?
On top of that, it would have been mum’s birthday tomorrow so everything is closing in and bearing down on me today
Hi @CatDaddy71 ,
Thank you so much for sharing this with the community 
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.
Take good care,
Alex
Aww Catdaddy71,
I remember that phone call too. I went to collect my mum’s. Never felt so traumatised seeing the small casket.
I just kept hugging it and put it into the spare bedroom and slept beside them for weeks.
It’s such a sad sad time.
Take your time to heal. Do whatever you think is best for you.
Love Deborah
Thankyou Deborah xx