It’s N’s birthday today.
He would have been 58, far too young to die.
He spent most of his last 4 months in hospital, going in on my birthday the first time but we managed to be home for his.
It’s been almost 10 months. I miss him every day, and at times, I still can’t believe he’s not going to come bouncing through the door.
I don’t know how I’ll get through the day 
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Sending you a big hug.
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It is too much. I am sorry you are grieving on your husband’s birthday. He was too young and I am so very, very sorry for your loss.
You will get through it hour by hour.
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My husband died in August and would have been 58 this month. It so hard when you think you have time ahead.
Sending hugs and strength
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Thinking of you…it’s so hard.
Sending hugs x
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I survived the day.
I hadnt slept well, woke up feeling incredibly sad and cried all the way to work!
My colleagues were brilliant, N’s friends and mine sent lots of lovely messages with promises to raise a toast for his birthday, I took a friend’s daughter for a try dive, which was a wonderfully fitting way to spend a couple of hours.
When I arrived home last night, I raised a glass of his favourite rum and toasted the life and memories I have…
Thank you all for your support x
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So hard but a day achieved with some positives and that is something to be proud of. My husband enjoyed a rum and I will raise a glass to you this evening 
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Similar timeline- my husband aged 59 died in Aug. Two children early 20s. Feel numb. Lots of good friends around - walks and talks - but feel so so lonely for him.
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Bgirl, I am so sorry for your loss. Your husband was too young to die, it just isn’t right. So sorry you are one of the grieving lost. Numb is a good word. Walking wounded.
Much love.
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Thank you for your kind words and my condolences to you
The feeling of loneliness even when with people is so painful.
I am really struggling at the minute. I am like a totally different person , so stressed and anxious.
I wouldn’t want anyone to go through this but at least we have here as a place to vent and find support.
x
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