My soulmate of 40 years died in July from Alzheimer’s and Parkinsons Disease after 6 long years of suffering - the last 2 years in mental hell. I feel that the nightmare of his suffering will never leave me. My life is empty now - I am in tears every day even though I try to keep strong. I don’t know what else to say . . I feel I really need the words of others to, hopefully, help me.
Dear Elaine48, so sorry to hear of your loss and it is such a difficult time. My husband died 14 months ago after 55 years together. I still miss him so much and still very lonely but it’s not as raw as it was. I have days that are worse than others but there are some ok days in between. I think it’s just accepting that our lives are never going to be the same as they were which is very hard. But there’s nothing to do but carry on even though it’s a bit of an existence a lot of the time. Take care, and hope things will get a little easier. Lots of hugs xxx
Watching the suffering they go through, and your own, before they pass, is so hard. And, then after they go, you have a different type of suffering left to deal with. I think Alzheimer’s Disease has got to be one of the most difficult things to bear, both for the sufferer and their spouse. I hope you find some peace.
I also keep reliving all the suffering he went through. I just hope this will get easier. I see him in each room and the difficulties he faced every day.