I lost my brother to suicide in November last year. My work have been very supportive and I’ve had 3 months off work thus far.
I’m due to go back on 14/02 but I’m suddenly feeling extremely anxious about going back. Partly it’s going back in itself as part of me feels I am not ready. The other anxious part is that my work is really tough in what I encounter every day and I don’t feel ready to go back to that after what happened to my brother.
As well as being anxious, I just really want to get a new job as I can’t deal with my job and what it entails after losing my brother to suicide.
Has anyone had any similar experiences? Also, does anyone have any advice?
I am sorry to hear of the loss of your brother. I would book an appointment with your GP and explain that you are not ready for work. You are still grieving and in pain.
Have you considered talking to your manager and explaining how you feel to see if you could be re-deployed to another department or position?
There is an organisation called Sudden which have useful resources but unfortunately cannot accept new cases at this time.
Sue Ryder here have bereavement information and support pages which will be of help to you along with offering Counselling.
Another option you may like to consider is Cruse Bereavement UK who offer a helpline, email support, counselling and support groups through their local services.
The way you are feeling is normal. I left my job to care for my brother and wouldn’t be able to work in the NHS anymore because of the reminders. Someone told me that it helped them when they went back to work