Going out and socializing

My son Theo died on October 2nd 2021 from a car accident. I was in denial for a long time and I didn’t start grieving to about the middle of February. 2022. I have a doctor’s appointment coming up and it’s about 2 hours away. My fiance will probably want to stop and go to a tavern that we went to when I was at my other doctor’s appointment. I am anxious about this because I really don’t want to go out and sit among people when I am feeling so down. I feel bad about this because I feel that my fiance would really like to go. How do I handle being out in public and maybe breaking down in the bar. I don’t like being around people when I am sad I feel like I am just bringing the whole atmosphere down. I am really anxious about this does anyone else have any advice or have they felt like this as far as socializing.

Hi Racy, I can only imagine what you are going through, it’s early days, and I think on this one occasion when you have a Doctors appointment, that maybe your fiancée could miss his visit to the pub, it’s really difficult to socialise when you are feeling as you do, Doctors appointments are stressful at the best of times, sending love Jude xx

Thank you for the reply. I don’t think my fiancee would mind missing the pub . It’s just me feeling bad about it, but your response helped.