Grief after my mother died

Coping with bereavement
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It’s now been a year since my beloved mother died, she died just 9 months after my step dad. The cumulative grief has hit me like a tonne of bricks.

On the 9th April 2026 marked a year since she died. On the day I was deeply sad and I also felt that I’d done the first year and it was so hard… I watched the sunrise and felt a sense of peace in that moment.

Now it’s been a few weeks on and I feel different again. I’m more impatient, I feel angry at times at the realisation that I’m into another year without my mother, my second year without my step father and I just feel like I’m climbing a mountain but never getting to the summit.

I look at pictures of me before these deaths and pictures now and as much as I practice self care I look a lot older … I feel profoundly changed and as I move into year 2 I feel awful about it.

Has anyone else felt the same?

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I feel like I live in a different world now, just going through the motions hoping I’ll feel true joy and happiness again one day. It’s a constant rollercoaster of acceptance of the situation and feeling ok’ish to feeling like I’m in a deep dark miserable hole I’ll never get out of. All while watching the rest of the world seemingly carry on living their happy normal lives.

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