Good afternoon I hope everyone is well.
I wanted to share my journey through grief and I hope my experience helps
I have learned so much about myself it’s all be a learning curve and I never thought for one moment grief would be easy to navigate it’s so not that. You will have good and bad days it will hurt more than you can possibly imagine. It’s torture it’s heartbreaking it’s all self consuming. You might be like me have constant suicidal thoughts. I still have them today. I know in my heart I don’t want to be here anymore since I lost my mum but I have found a way to cope. I tell myself my mum wouldn’t want ri me feel like this. Knowing she’s never truly left me gets me through the bad days.
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Steven
If mum is in your head and your heart then she is never far away.
Take care,
G. X
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Hi Steven,
My dad passed away recently and I also take great comfort from knowing that even though I cant see him he is still with me everyday.
Take care
Vicky xx
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Hi Steven,
It’s strange you should mention that feeling of not wanting to be here, I had that same conversation with my counselor today. I remember that feeling well the first few months. As I said to her I wouldn’t do anything silly, but the feeling of not wanting to carry on was very strong in the first month’s. Then I remember our children and how they would feel, having just lost their dad they would be devastated if I wasn’t here too.
As I’m sure your dad would be if anything happened to you. Your right your mum wouldn’t want you to feel like that, as my husband wouldn’t want me to either.
Losing someone you love is a hard learning curve that none of us wanted to be on, but we can only do the best that we can and keep going one day at a time.
Take care and look after yourself.
Debbie x
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Hi Steven,
Thanks for sharing your insight.
I lost my dad in November and the grief is like nothing I’ve experienced before. Losing dad is unbearable and the grief is relentless but there have also been moments recently where I have felt my dad’s love, so much so that it has given me a brief sense of peace.
I still have feelings of wanting to be wherever my dad is but until we are together again I will carry on living my life like he wanted for me. I know that he is proud of me and doing things that I know he would like also makes me feel closer to him.
If I doubt that I can cope with the grief knowing other people are also trying to continue with life gives some comfort.
Take care
Xx
Hi thank you for sharing your thoughts. It’s so heartwarming to know I’m not alone on my journey through grief.
Grief can be a very lonely feeling to have to deal with There are days of absolute torture total sadness that is so hard to see the wood for the trees. I have so many nights crying myself to sleep and in the middle of the night going for a walk at like 2am in the morning trying to make sense of why this is happened to me and I think about my dad I still can’t imagine how hard it is for him to lose my mum and I will never make sense of it. During my very early morning walk I realise I have walked for miles sometimes 10 miles most of the time I have cried all the way. It’s my way of dealing with my grief it clears my head a tiny bit. I’ve done it so many times it’s got me through the last 6 years since I lost my mum
Many regards Steve
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