I lost my partner of 30 years to cancer in March 2024. I have never felt so much pain and heartache. I did my best in the beginning I must keep going get back to work keep busy and be strong for our 2 boys but I fell unwell in December and I have never felt so alone my partner did everything for me and all I wanted when I was unwell was him. Christmas was also his favourite time of the year and I just couldn’t bear the thought of Christmas without him I feel like I have just lost him again. Grief is so up and down I overheard someone say shouldn’t I be over it by now NO he was my life and I will never get over losing him. Currently not sleeping mind is not allowing me to, I have redecorated kitchen bathroom and living room this has been done at stupid times of the day and night and now all I think about is what can I do next very manic at the moment but getting help from GP. When will the pain stop
Chelsea, i dont think we will ever stop being in pain. I lost my husband 5 months ago and the pain is unbearable. I cant ever imagine a time when i wont feel the pain but people have told me that you just learn to live with it. Its so unfair that we have to. I feel like im just existing, not living, and just waiting till my time comes to go & be with him again. Do you feel the same? I dont want to be here without him, we were married 38 years & together 41. I cant remember a life without him in it. He was/is my whole world & i love him so much. Im so sorry youre going through this too. Life can be so cruel. They say grief is the price you pay for love. Thinking of you & sending love & strength x
Sally9
I know that feeling of wanting to be with him everyday it hurts and I am the same just existing day to day. Sending you hugs and thinking of you.