I agree with you about the mornings, every morning I wished I hadn’t woken up and go to sleep hoping I dont.
Waking up every day knowing that they’re not going to be there.
Its been 16 weeks for me since I lost my beloved husband and I miss him everyday and struggling without him. After 22 years, half of me is missing and ive hit rock bottom lately and just want to give up so I can be with him again.
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Yes, mornings and evenings are the toughest. I lost my husband 5 weeks ago after 43 years together. Feels like I have to reinvent myself for a completely different life. I liked the old one better. It’s good to make contact with people on the same journey as no one really understands unless it’s happened to them. It sounds silly but when I feel at my lowest I have a good cry and then think " Right I’ll have a cup of tea now , it can only make me feel a bit better because I can’t feel any worse". And it does make me feel a bit better. Be gentle with yourself, try to have small things to look forward to and remember grief is a lonely journey but there are others going through the same thing who understand. Life will never be the same again but you get used to living alongside the grief in time. I know this because I also lost my wonderful teenage daughter 20 years ago. The world is a different place without those you love and navigating it is very hard but I wish you all well on this sad journey we share.
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Oh I fully agree with as I feel exactly the same , I have been without my husband for 18 weeks.
There are times in the day when I think - I must remember to tell his or that and then bang.
I’m going to see a well being councillor this afternoon as she thinks she may be able to help me calm down,
Will have to wait and see.
I nearly cancelled going but I will give her a try.
Lynn. X
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Hope all goes well with your councillor this afternoon. Know what you mean , am always just about to tell my husband something about my day and then feel the sudden pang of realising he’s not there. Also miss all the private little jokes we shared and being able to say anything to him knowing he totally understand and accepted me for the person I am , good or bad. Hang in there, stay well and be gentle with yourself. It will never be the same but it will get easier to navigate.
I had my second session yesterday morning, I cried alot again xx
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I cried a lot during my counselling sessions, though it does help to vent the misery i feel.
I can look at photos of Hazel, but it’s when i think that i can’t make any more memories with her 
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Its a long cruel road to travel we are here traveling down a similar road but we have to do it for ourselves i miss my Linda so much and now the horrid weekend is upon is again i really dont want to be here without her any more either and having been told counciling is six month wait well at this rate i it be too late
im so sorry you are going down this road of grief its horrid place to be we will try and support all of us on here I’m sat awake again too 3am no sign of sleep even the tablets don’t help me that feeling of groundhog day is terrible i get that try take it slow your mind is stuck in fast forward trying to make sense of whats happened take one day at a time im so sorry your in this terrible club now my thoughts are with you big hug from me 
Martin x
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Yes I agree with you about making new memories without him, our grandson turned 3 a week after he died, we had bought him a new bike for his birthday before he passed away and he never got to see him ride it.
He is never going to see his kids get married and walk our daughter down the aisle, her boyfriend asked him when he was in the hospital for his permission.
Our son is doing the race for life in June in honour of him, im going to watch but without his dad beside me.
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Morning , how are you doing today x
Morning, not too bad thank you, how are you,
A bit shaky but it’s the meds, I got in touch with a lady who advises on Homeopathic remedies which I would prefer as I’m bothered about taking the prescribed meds that I will hit rock bottom when the doctor starts reducing them- going to ask him.
I’m keeping busy today but my hubby is with me- if I stop being busy I will break down - again and again———- x
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@Rubyroo12 im glad you feeling a little bit less stressed yeah i don’t wana think about how many tablets I’m taking at moment scares me with my pain meds heart meds and antidepressants on too like a walking pharmacy yes keeping busy i find it helps now im looking after Linda’s mum but ive got lindas daughters wedding to go to in bolton Manchester Thursday wedding sat and be honest im scared to death as ive not driven that distance for many years linda did all the driving before when we moved to Devon from northwest Lancashire in 2017 so its stressing me out getting everything to go there for 5 days and getting her mum who is not very mobile and not good health for her granddaughters wedding anyway hope you have a better week this week take care of you look after yourself one foot in front of the other
Martin x
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Ruth61.& all…i totally get the just about to say something and they finish it for you.coz you know each other so well …knowing stuff together without having even to say it…i have 4adult children.8gkids with another due in may…people say its something to look fwd to…it is …but…i just wish loz was here with me too
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