I knelt at the edge of my mums reshly dug grave today, and sobbed my heart out. Driving home I couldn’t remember what I was thinking as I knelt there and cried. All I can think of is that I felt so empty and lost. I don’t understand how I feel, mum is at peace, I have a strong amazing family, so why.?
How I wished I could have been there, kneeling beside you and putting my arms around you. I think it is totally natural that you sobbed your heart out. Knowing in our minds that someone is at peace is one thing, but that does not take away the deep sadness we feel about missing them. Nothing makes that more real than seeing a coffin or an open grave. There is nothing wrong with letting our tears flow at times like that.
Sending you a big hug. xxx