Hi, I’m not sure what I’m looking for. I met a guy and we became close. He told friends he liked me, and even said it to me. However I freaked out, I was sexually assaulted when I was young and hid it from everyone.

If guys got close I would run away. I started therapy and we had been talking more. I felt for the first time in a long time I could actually see myself with the guy and happy. I wanted to tell him, however he died before I could. I don’t know how to handle it. I didn’t know him long but in some ways I felt I did. Life just seems very unfair.

I’m not sure what I want, I’m angry he left (although know he was physically unwell it was very sudden his passing). I keep looking for signs he still here, but scared I didn’t mean anything.

That is so sad to hear - loss is loss, and painful however long (or short) the relationship.
{hugs} hope you have friends you can talk to.

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Thank you, it’s just hard as in a way I started therapy cause I didn’t want it to miss out on such a great guy. He was warm, and funny, made me feel seen and safe (when most of the time I’m just used to being invisible).

I keep hoping I’ll sense him or dream of him. However my iPhone got stuck on a song ‘say you’ll haunt me’, which is an odd co-incidence but I hope it was him.

My husband of 25 years, 32 years together, died in December . I expected to have dreams about him - but not had any.
Maybe I’m just not ready yet.
My son and I talk about him all the time and he is in my thoughts every day.

Wishing you peace and happy memories. X

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I am sorry for your loss. Hope your ok as can be.

Thank you for taking time to reply to me.

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It’s my pleasure - I know how much this chat room has helped me.

Take care and one day at a time. X

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very sorry. but put it this way … if you were involved and he died, it would be so much harder on you.

I had same. and then he died. we were just friends … if we had married he would have died on me.