Today is 10 weeks since I my parnter of 17 years I just can’t believe he gone and I won’t see him again it’s hurts
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It is 6 weeks for me and I can not accept the finality of it all. I expect my husband to walk into the room at any moment. The very idea that I will never see him again is more than I can handle, so I live hour by hour for now.
I am so sorry that your partner died. It is a horror show. All of us here are suffering the same loss, so speak freely and you will find that everyone here understands completely.
Only widows and widowers know that this loss is like. You’ve come to a good place to vent.
Much love.
Sorry for your loss has well.
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Hello Jo and Peaches. My first post here, and I feel exactly the same as both of you are feeling. My husband died on the 8 Oct (by his own hand). It’s quite surreal and I never thought, in a million years, this would ‘happen to me/us’, it only ‘happens to others’.
Yes, the reality of not seeing him again will probably hit me in the future, as I guess it’s just too much to deal with at the moment. I am a pragmatist by nature, but this has pulled the rug from under my feet.
Just a truly dreadful situation for all to experience, regardless of how our partners died, the grief is real, cruel and quite overwhelming.
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Hello OnlyMe2,
I am so sorry for the loss of your husband. This site is a good place to be as everyone is really kind and supportive to each other and they truly understand what we are going through.
My wife died on the 7th of October. It was sudden and unexpected and I too never imagined it would happen to us, at least not for a long time yet. She was 57.
I still can’t accept she has gone. It feels like a nightmare. My life feels weird like some kind of warped existence but I suppose that’s the shock. I am having to do things I never thought I would have to do. I always thought I would die first.
I hope you will gain comfort from being here. Losing a loved one is traumatic beyond belief. I never realised the agony and pain would be so deep.
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Thank you, Jocorns. We are all in such a sorry spot. Life is pretty much like picking through the remnants of a home after a direct hit by a hurricane. Stunned, shock, numb, in a fog.
OnlyMe, I am so very sorry that your husband died and that he did so by his own hand. You must be shattered, your horizon shattered. Even a pragmatist’s foundation would shake and maybe crack a bit. This is such a heavy sadness, I have no words other than my soul hurts for you.
I don’t know how, but we will survive. We have already survived this far. One day survival will turn into living. It will.
Much love.
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Dave - yes! Like a different dimension or something. Such a weird existence.
Continuous emptiness. I feel so sorry for all of us.
Much love.
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Thank you Dave4. Dreadful to read about you loss, just one day after mine,and your lovely wife was just one year older than my husband. I don’t want to ‘hijack’ jocorns first post, so I will start a new one. Thanks for your support, it’s much apprecaited.
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I still wake up thinking it just a dream then hits me all over again and now christmas is coming I’m dreading it
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Strangely enough, I haven’t experience those feelings when waking up, thankfully although I’m sure I will in due course. There are no words really are there, it’s just the worse thing ever to experience, and no matter what anyone says, one has to live through these feelings.
Paul was my first partner and to experience his loss is hard