Since I lost my wife of 31 years back in March I’ve been looking for ‘answers’ - no I have no idea what I mean by that but the engineer in me has been trying to ‘educate’ myself on the grieving process. I came across a couple of things that might be helpful / of interest to others; a book by Cariad Lloyd titled ‘You are not alone’ where she describes losing her father as a teenager and the impact that has had over the last +20yrs. I’m not suggesting it has solutions but it offers real understanding at times on what we are going through. Building on this I found a ‘podcast’ called “Griefcast” where Cariad interviews a range of people on their loss. I know it sounds deeply upsetting / depressing, but, I found real connection with a number of the guests as they described their situation and it made sense of things I feel at times. I’m not saying either of these are right for everyone and neither do they offer ‘solutions to fix us’ but I found some of the insights helped my understanding. Kind regards, Kevin
Ive also found griefcast really helpful. Shame there are no more new episodes! Theres another one called Good Mourning you might want to try - its hosted by two females in their 20s/30s (?) who both lost their Mums. Its quite relaxed and warning they do drop the occasional “f bomb” but i really like the friendship these two have developed, and you can see over the various episodes how their own grief journeys have progressed. P.s. they also have Cariad as a guest on one episode.
Hi my friend…I am 18 months down the line…I got into both of these helpful items within the first few weeks and I endorse them as you say. They helped a lot. There are several others…but I most heartily endorse this forum as helpful…but go where we your heart leads you…there are no answers…I’m fact, there are no questions…after all these months I am realising ‘it is what it is’…and I can’t change it…but I still don’t know how to deal with it… I’m certain I never will 
Yes - There are lots of podcasts. I think I’ve been through them all as I listen when I’m out walking the dog 
What’s your grief is a good one and has a website with loads of info ( US based) The widows walk, the widow squad, Widow we do now, Karen Sutton, widowed mom podcast……
A good book is “it’s ok that you’re not ok “ by Megan Devine.
It’s maybe not for everyone like you say but I’ve found trying to understand my grief and how I’m feeling has been really helpful, especially in the early days.
Not so much now as I slump into reality and pain and sadness. But definitely worth a listen.
I too have done a lot of reading around grief and find it helpful to know what I feel is normal. In our culture grief is not spoken about enough and that makes us feel alone with our thoughts.
@KMCG Many thanks for recommending Griefcast, been listening to them throughout the day and it’s just been really suited to this constant rain, people chatting about grief in a gently open, funny, swearing and succinct way.