Does anybody have any advice on how to cope if you’re grieving alone?
I lost Mum suddenly on 10 November. We were in Orlando on holiday for her 70th birthday (it was her favourite place). After two days, she started complaining of neck pain and she was tired and didn’t have any appetite. I called the doctor who came out and examined her and said she had a muscle spasm and was dehydrated and prescribed painkillers and muscle relaxants.
A couple of days later, I woke up and found her laying in the hallway of our hotel room. I immediately called 911 and hotel staff and then paramedics performed CPR but with no success.
Mum was everything to me. I’m an only child and Mum was an only child so I don’t have siblings or cousins. I’m estranged from Dad, I haven’t got any contact details for him. I don’t even know if he’s still alive. I haven’t worked for 4+ years because of anxiety and depression and I haven’t got any friends.
I wouldn’t change the special relationship I had with Mum for anything but I’m so envious of people who’ve still got family, friends and partners to support them. The celebrant who’s looking after Mum’s funeral came by last week and it was the first time somebody had hugged me in weeks.