Good evening all,
I am new here. I assume the fact you are reading this means you have lost someone - I am sorry you find yourself in this situation. I hope you find support and solace in this difficult time.
My father died of lung cancer two weeks ago. Today was his funeral in the country of my birth. Due to the Covid pandemic, I did not attend his funeral, and was not with him and my family throughout his illness. The last time I saw him was in January.
I suppose I am coping reasonably well. I am still working, although I struggle to focus sometimes (I work from home in a full-time role), I occasionally manage to complete a housework task, I get some sleep. And because I make sure my husband has healthy, nutritious meals in between his shifts, I also eat well once a day. Although the fact that my hands are shaking as I write this probably suggests I still have a long journey ahead of me.
I have only very few family members and a very small support network in the UK. My husband works in a demanding role in public services that has a high risk of Covid exposure, hence I am also more likely to be exposed or a carrier. The area I live in is in local lockdown and I do not drive. So it is difficult for me to access support or see anyone, as I don’t want to put other people at risk. I would be grateful to hear from others in a similar situation. What has helped you to grieve in isolation?