@Mr1Horace
Dear Mr1Horace
I was married to my husband for 43 years, together for 45 when he passed away last October.
He was a very fit and healthy man so it was such a shock when he fell ill. We had eight weeks together after his diagnosis of blood cancer but we were told that with chemo he would have 12 - 18 months, maybe more. It wasn’t to be. He had one infection after another, sometimes he was able to speak when the antibiotics kicked in but most of the time he was sleeping.
We never said goodbye or even spoke about death as we were so sure he would be o.k. He wanted to come home and I tried so hard to make this happen but he was too ill to be moved. He slipped away when I popped out of the room, I think he did it out of love for me so I wouldn’t have to see him die.
I know it is easy to say to you that you must not feel guilty but not so easy for you to accept.
It is very early days for you still. Please take a day at a time and try in your own way to be kind to yourself.
Sending strength and hugs to you xx
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Hi Alir thank you for that I do feel guilty but so many people have said the same thing and I am gaining strength from them I loved Eve so much and nothing will ever be the same and I will try to take it a lot slower I’m sorry for your pain but thanks for taking the time to try and ease mine take care lol
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