I have had to cope with cancer for a number of years since my partner passed away 3years ago.
My partner of 22yrs passed away on May 5th 2022 after battling for 3yrs with stage 4 cervical cancer.
That was the hardest journey ever and I hope I don’t have to witness anything like that again.
I still have not got through or began coping with my loss.
I had the honour and pleasure to get to know my new friend and companion, Dora a French bull dog who our nephew rescued from a breeders at the time my partner was diagnosed.
I had Dora for 6 years until she was around 9 years old, being 3yrs old when she became a unproductive overhead for the breeder now making them no money.
Our relationship was solely love inclined.
So imagine after helping me through the emotional battle and passing of my partner, Dora herself was diagnosed with terminal cancer putting a massive strain on a already grief stricken me and having the decision to euthanize her for her best interests.
That in itself was a really hard decision to make, i owed her so much .
All i could do was to pay for a private cremation so i could possess her ashes.
They say everything comes in three’s.
Well that is very true.
Now my uncle who we are really close too and lives just up the street in a bunglow has been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and is in hospital due to falling and severe pain in his spine.
GIVE ME A BREAK.
WHAT HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE ALL THIS SORROW AND BAD TIMES IN OUR LIVES.
There has not been any happy stories to tell .
I am so affraid of death and illness.
My mental wellbeing could not get any lower.
My parents are not getting any younger and I worry so much if something happens to them.
I have such a close relationship with my parents and see them on a regular basis.
I am 55 in July and my parents are in there 80’s.
I have a beautiful son 20yrs old but i will be no good to him if i go through another loss in the family.
I just needed to tell my situation and hope it lifts a weight off my shoulders.
I suppose it’s just life but i do wish it was a bit easier.
Thanks everyone.
ERICH
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I’m so sorry for everything you’ve gone through, Erich. I just wanted to let you know that you’ve been heard. I hope it’s helped to write it down 
Please do keep reaching out,
Seaneen
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So sorry Erich. What a lot you have had to cope with.