Today has been tough . Ive spent the last week clearing my beloved mums little bungalow . 25 years of her life and memories cleared out and as i was standing in the empty shell of her home it broke me again , the realisation that she wouldnt be coming back there , i would never be in that space with her again , all our memories tied in that home will now be displaced by others . Ive been moving around in a daze trying to get things done in the timeframe we were given but now its done im feeling hollow and broken again . How am i going to carry on without my mum .
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Massive hugs to you. 
Im going to have to embark on the same task over the next couple of months and I’m completely dreading it and how im going to cope once its done 
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Bless you its so difficult , we only had a week to do it , my mums only been gone 3 weeks today , its been a lot to cope with xx
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Oh goodness that is absolutely no time at all! The pain is still so incredibly raw at that stage, to have to pack everything up must have been horrendous. 
i hope you’ve managed to keep some precious items to have in your own home
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It is still so raw , weve not even had her service yet bless her . I couldnt face sorting through her things just yet so weve boxed everything and bought it back to our home for me to look though when im ready x
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Oh thats good im glad you’ve got room to do that. There’s no rush - you have so much else to deal with right now
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Our house looks like a storage unit but we will manage and it will give me the time and space to grieve x
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Hi Tottie,
I have recently been through the same as you. I also brought everything back to my house to sort out in my own time and in my own home . I found this to be easier than doing it at my mum’s house.
The worst part was when everything had been taken out and I was the last person to walk out of the house that my mum had lived in for 55 years. I remember as a young child moving in there and deciding which room would be my bedroom. Standing there on the last day seemed to be unreal. I walked out holding mums photo and as I locked the door for the last time I kissed the door handle and got into car and closed my eyes as my husband drove away. I couldn’t bear to look.
Boxes and boxes and furniture are piled high in my dining room and in time I will go through everything but I am doing it slowly.
Thinking of you
Deborah x
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Hi Tottie
It’s so terribly difficult - we managed to get my Mums home cleared in a week or so - we pored over what to keep and what to leave or give away… my Mums furniture that she had picked out and paid for… all her personal items were clothes and things of ours, cards, baby teeth, jewellery - my Mum didn’t have many possessions as such which made it easier.
Everything becomes a relic that you don’t want to leave behind, something she touched or used. I have a roller with a strand of her hair in that I don’t touch often in case I lose her hair!
And saying goodbye to a home you may have once shared adds an extra layer of sadness…
But just remember your Mum would be proud of you for handling it all.
And your Mums home may be gone but she still has a home with you. Home for me now is my Mums memory, as we lived together until I was 35 and leaving my family home was devastating… all the memories.
I miss my Mum terribly, 12 weeks later I still don’t feel as though she’s truly gone… but she is. And I have a heaviness in my heart that will never leave me.
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The phrase “your Mums home may be gone but she still has a home with you” - has really struck a chord in my heart, thank you
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