Today has been so hard. Lost my husband just over 4 weeks ago. I haven’t been able to stop crying today and feel so lonely and sad. Postman just called and the memory cushion I ordered arrived. Just what I need. Maybe Dennis is looking out for me 
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Hello I have never thought of a memory cushion before.
It is very sad and hard when a crying day happens. I remember those every day at first. Very exhausting. Being lonely today and feeling this indecision that comes over me. Imagine having a cuppa together. X
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Hi,
I’m so sorry for your loss. I am nearly 9 months in to this journey, one i can’t get off. I’m having a really sad day today . It’s what would have been our 32nd wedding anniversary. I just can’t stop crying. I feel so lonely. Everyone carries on with their lives and I’m just existing! I’m sad and angry as my husband was 56 when he was taken from me. He’d worked so hard to provide for us and we were just at a point of making plans for retirement. I feel that we have both been robbed of our dreams for the future. He never got to enjoy the retirement he had worked so hard for! I’m so devastated by his loss. People think I’m doing well but I’m so not, I feel like I’m going backwards. The pain & grief is more intense now than it was initially. I miss him with every fibre of my being. I just want to be with him. I can user a future without him. I love him so much!
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Hi Alli2. I know how you feel. My husband was taken into hospital on the day he retired and never came home. Our dreams for retirement all gone. I have no idea what I will do for the rest of my days without him. It was his funeral last Tuesday. I feel totally lonely and broken.
Hugs xx
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Sending you huge hugs x
It’s just so overwhelming to even imagine a life without him. It’s still so raw.
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That is tough that he died when he retired. I moan that my husband only had a few years pain free retirement and that is much worse.
I have been retired 18 years and 2 as a widow so In comparison I should be feeling lucky but I am sad. Sad that I am anxious and haven’t got energy to make most of things. But it is good for thought to try to snap out of it
Write a gratefulness list or listen to the advice my hubby said to me: you will be alright
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Dennis said the same to me and that I’m stronger than I think but I don’t see that. Hate waking every morning and it hitting me again
Lost my hubby just over 2 weeks ago,have had a funny day today,was feeling so,so,was going to take some things to charity shop,ok with that,Our son came downstairs and said are you taking this it was his walking stick,well that set me off,he just said oh mum and gave me a massive hug.It was just a walking stick.
Yes I wouldn’t want to take stuff I could use myself of his like the stick. Because it is useful for all sorts of things and symbolises a crutch so triggering. I would want his stick if he had one repurposed.