Went for an early morning walk along the beach this morning.
Apart from frostbite and almost hypothermia, it cleared my head.
It’s been a month since Carol passed and it’s been the worst month of my life… but I finally made the decision that I had to take more care of myself and try harder to get back into a more ‘normal’ life.
I realised that I can do that while still remembering Carol and the good times we had.
It’s not going to be easy, but I feel it has to be done.
I’m sure the ones we have lost will understand.
Take Care x
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@MickUK
Well done. A fantastic approach to take, and I am sure you will be ok in due course.It will be up and down, up and down, of course it will.
I too have to now focus on ‘something’, but I have the inquest into my husbands death in early Feb 25, so that is hovering over me like some kind of leech, sucking the life out of me (He died on 8 Oct, taking his own life)
I do have ok days, and will return to full time work after the inquest.
I was doing ok recently, but suffered a massive set back when someone I thought was a friend I could rely on, sadly turned out not to be.
Best of luck, and you will do just fine, it will no doubt take a while, but you will be ok.
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@MickUK You’re absolutely right. This is what we have to do. It will be a hard path to follow, with lots of ups and downs, and sometimes some
seemingly impossible climbs.
It’s taken me nearly 12 months to get to the point where I want to look after myself and learn that it’s ok to be happy and have some fun.
It doesn’t mean I love N any less, or that I’ve forgotten him, but I’m important too, and I’m the one keeping our memories alive.
Hugs to you.
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Yes, we have to move forward into our new life. It is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It has been almost 3 months for me, I have had some happy moments. Long walks are great for clearing up the fog in our brains.
If the shoe were on the other foot, I wouldn’t want my husband to fade away in grief or spend the rest of his life alone and sad. I would want him to be happy and have fun without me. Carol approves.
It is a rollercoaster my friend, and the ride is not nearly over. Enjoy the good days and know that more are coming.
Good on you!
Much love.
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Carol will always be with you - right there inside your heart. You will take her everywhere you go. Its hard to imagine a future without them, but just take care of each day and the future will take care of itself. Good Luck
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