I used to think you’re heart could only break once. Now I know different it can break every single day numerous times. Just been crying my eyes out came out of nowhere. Oh I miss my sister so so much. Its so damn unfair. Reading this forum I know it’s not just me fealing this way. My sister was a year younger than me. I didn’t realise not truly how blooming important she was to me. I guess you don’t do you, you just assume that youl always be there youl grow to be dithering older ladies together. You imagine youl deal with the passing of you’re parents side by side. Everything has altered the whole family dynamics. It’s like being in a weird world nothing feels real. Oh I don’t cry every day not like it was in the first few months… She died in April brain cancer just over 3 months from Diagnosis to death so a utter shock. But still every day I wake think ohh ill ring… And the sick feeling the hurt hits me again
I heard that my bro in law had been away overnight with some woman. How he gets away with it re the covid I don’t know. Maybe they pretend to be a couple instead of just pick ups from a, blooming dateing site. He also has lost a bracelet he had with some of my sisters ashes in it. Very upsetting. No doubt lost it in a hotel room. I just do not get how in less than 6 months you can loose you’re wife, claim you’re devestated then start sh**ging around. It’s just arghhh words don’t cover it.
You know my sister spent 9 weeks in hospital. 5 of those we knew that the Dr’s weren’t going to do anything else. For 8 of those weeks I wanted a second opinion from christies at Manchester but my bro in law refused. Now I think I know why. His wife died, he bought on the insurance pay out a audi tt at 25000,he bought a 18000 motorbike. He decorated the house, he threw out her clothes, he sold her jewelery, he got rid of her dog, he joined a dating site and replaced her. I hate his guts. I just had to get that out.