I have only just found this group.
I am only 5 days in, losing my partner so very very recent. Im still trying to navigate all of the emotions that i have. Circumstances were sudden, and i feel empty, sad, numb, angry, lonely, and just a bit all over the place really. Family and friends have been amazing but however much they are around i feel suffocated, but then also dont want to be alone. I miss him so much, he was my best friend, we spoke what felt like every minute of every day, that loss alone is indescribable pain, im not even sure what to say.
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So sorry you are feeling so sad. It’s a horrendous feeling. Always happy to chat 
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What you are feeling is what we all are going through as well. Your emotions and reactions are completely normal. Family and friends will bombard you for a couple of weeks and then, you will have time alone. Well, that is how it went for me. Once the funeral was over, I could be alone.
Just remember, family and friends are grieving too, so let them grieve with you. It is all love, let them love you and care for you.
Yes, the pain is horrific. It will subside, I promise. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. It is all a whirlwind of planning and raw emotion, make a list of 5 things you must do each day and do them. Many of us reacted by manic cleaning and organizing, some stay in bed and cry.
For me, the manic cleaning was self-preservation as I had only one thing at a time on which to focus and it kept my mind busy and away from thinking about the fact that my husband is dead and will never come home again. I still can’t wrap my head around that fact. It is surreal.
Much love to you and a good squeezing hug from New Orleans. Before I start to cry, I shall get dressed and get ready to do some unimportant busywork.
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So very sorry.
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I am 21 days in since my wife died, the first week was totally numb, just lost in the house, don’t be hard on yourself, allow yourself time to grieve, allow your friends to help you, in the coming days they will be important in keeping you engaged with life, I couldn’t do this without my friends keeping me out of my own head, as has been said before, we are here to listen and we know how you feel, take care of yourself
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Been 19 days since I lost my husband. I think it’s only just sinking in that this is my life now. First week I was numb, second week I was on autopilot, this week has been the hardest. Just trying to survive each day.
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My thoughts are with you, im so sorry for your loss. Its the most difficult thing. I think im still on shock.
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Thank you so much for your kind words. Im sorry for your loss also. Such a hard new situation to navigate through. Take care of yourself also x
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I’m very sorry that your dear partner is gone. My husband died on September 17. I am feeling all of the emotions you described. I think of and miss him every second of every day. I am seeing a grief counselor and have gone to a couple of grief support groups. I keep hearing people tell me the same thing over and over. I have found the people here are the most understanding and caring. I am getting out of the house everyday and I am trying to find some peace and happiness because I know my husband would want that for me. I’m just functioning under a dark fog - going through the motions without joy. But I keep doing it in hopes one day I will begin to feel something other than numbness and sadness.
I wish you peace.
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Felini - you are an inspiration having hooked up with counseling so quickly. My husband died on the 24th, I am right there with you. It is awful.
Much love.
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