Two years ago I lost my civil partner. I had grief counselling and then after Christmas went to pieces with panic attacks and depression. I had just about got on an even keel with antidepressants and therapy and now have had to have my cat of 18 years put to sleep.this has completely thrown me, i hadnt realised what a companion he has been and am now experiencing heavy loneliness and now waves of grief for him and my partner
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Hello jobsy, so sorry for the loss of your partner, im glad that you were able to get counseling and were doing better..a precious pet is like family, i also had my precious cat Nellie, for about 12 years, i also had to put her down, and that broke my heart. I hope she was there in heaven to greet my husband, we loved her so much..take care and may God bless you 
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I do believe that too. All my precious birds will be with us in heaven. I named them all… They are a huge comfort to me…
Janka
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Janka, you need a sign like this for your beautiful garden.
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Looks beautiful, there’s no one else around?? Beautiful sunset. 
Hmm.
its pretty, what is it?
It was a decoration for birds, but in the wind we’ve had I like it more on the window. It’s a cardinal bird with sun catchers…
Janka
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Oh , it is really nice, i do see the cardinal now, . I bet that strong wind knocks everything down, it did at my house, it tore off a lattice and sent it flying. 
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Everything is still hanging out there, because I use metal and wood things mostly and they are heavy. Tonight the wind is gone. It’s so peaceful, nothing is moving. I just filled in the fountains with water, so birds will have enough when I go to work in the morning.
Janka
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Another workday tomorrow?? You work early??, ..I have a friend who messaged me saying she’s in town, she’s gonna come visit me tomorrow. She wasn’t able to make it to my husbands memorial service. We were childhood friends, her older sister still lives in the house she grew up in. I remember her mom was very mean..
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Yes, I’ll work from Friday to Wednesday, a lot of work because of 4th July, I talked to my best friend about all this situation going on, how bad, hard and expensive it is here. He told me very clearly that if things will not work out for me in October, I should come back, they both will help me with everything. It’s such a relief that I have my best friends, because here I don’t. I’ll see what Social security will tell me here. If they’'ll not help me in the future, I must know it now, because in my country it’ll be much better. My passport will expire too, so I need to solve so many things, that I must be sure that’s worthy of this nightmare I’m going through every day…
Janka
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Goodnight @Janka
Your photos are beautiful, I hope everything works out for you .
I hope you get an appointment soon as it will help once you know how your stand financially
I hope you sleep well
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