Hell just like living in hell and i read many of your stories and you say about people don’t understand or people don’t want to know you. If you haven’t lost someone that close to you then no they don’t understand. I lost my soulmate my friend my lover my obe true love. One minute talking on the phone the next phone call is my darling husband is gone. Just gone just like that and now i hate being in this house and 13 weeks 2 days on and my son is struggling so much and everything will never be the same again 
I’m lonely even when my daughters are here and my best friend died over 2 years ago and then my dad then my husband i have no friends and not much of an outlet and im disabled and struggle without my husband help and support and I keep going for my son and I really feel your pain i think one minute I’m doing ok and then i fall apart and back to day one of hell. Thinking of you all.
Sending a huge hug. It is like being in Hell. X
A big hug sent to you
Hi Judy,
I am truly sorry for what you are going through,
After my wife passed I was all for selling up and moving,until one of my nice neighbours said,if you move the pain and loneliness goes with you,but you will leave behind so many happy memories and joy.
Needless to say I stayed.
A big hug.
Ron.
Hugs Judy its so hard, but the best advice I got was one hr one day at a time. Xxx
I’m on my own, we had no children together and my lovely old cat was my saviour, but she was 17 and ihad to say goodbye to her afew weeks ago.
The house is very quiet, it’s been 10 months for me now and my anxiety has come back. But, I’m really trying to make a ‘new’ life, whatever that is!.i joined a pilates class, just once a week to give me something to get up for. I never want to go but enjoy it when I’m there and i go for a coffee after with some of the ladies which is nice. I try to catch up with friends at least once a week but it’s hard as they all have their own lives/families. So…i just bumble along really and still have better and some bad days.
There’s no answer to any of this, we just grow an inner strength i think 
. Iv never experienced such a strong, horrendous emotion before… and it sucks!..
This group is amazing though and full of good advice. You just have to push yourself out of your comfort zone, it will improve as you grow stronger xxxx
I have been giving the forum a bit of a rest, just dropping in now and again but not posting, I did feel it necessary, I do resonate with Sables post, I have found the anxiety is coming back, the “good” days are ok but the crap days are just that.
I had taken to avoid leaving the house where I am most comfortable but have been forced to go out as my daughter went away for 5 days and asked me to look after her bird twice a day, something my wife used to do, my daughter is also a loner but unlike me, out of choice, I find I am happy in her house but I struggle with the drive there and back as it involves being out and about with other people, I am hoping it might “normalize” my life, ( Muntjac has just appeared in the garden - always cheers me up a little!) I am sure you are right about pushing yourself out of your comfort zone but it is really hard, it seems that every couple of months forward you have to change tactics to keep moving forward!
Take care all.