I lost my twin brother in a car accident last year, an accident that also claimed the life of one of our best friends, I somehow managed to walk away.
I don’t feel lucky or relieved. I wish I had died too that day. We could have left this world together, just like how we arrived.
My life without you is like purgatory….
I walk around our flat, constantly surrounded in a smog of anger, heartbreak and loneliness.
How could you leave me?
You are still a part of me, I still feel you here.
If we had gotten in the opposite sides of the car that night?…. I would be gone, and you would be here.
I think about joining you every day. My walking thought, my resting prayer, soaked in rivers of endless tears.
I don’t cry anymore, I can’t…. The last time I didn’t stop for hours, my whole body ached so bad the next day, and there’s also mum & dad.
They hover and spy on me….
They’re so over-protective and smothering.
You would hate it.
Endless, hollow, stares & worried glances,
I miss you so much.
Every night when I close my eyes, I sing our song….
Hello-Hello, turn your radio on
Your Shakespeare Sister Xx